LITERATURE: Lamya H's "Hijab Butch Blues": A Groundbreaking Memoir on Queerness and Faith
Lamya H, the author of "Hijab Butch Blues," perceives prophets in the Quran not as infallible beings but as complex protagonists. This perspective is woven throughout their 2023 debut memoir, where each chapter mirrors their personal experiences with figures from Muslim scripture. "Hijab Butch Blues" reflects Lamya's journey as a queer individual growing up in a predominantly Muslim country, realising their sexuality, and immigrating to the U.S. while keeping their identity hidden. Lamya published the book under a pseudonym to maintain privacy and express vulnerability.
The memoir has received significant acclaim, winning awards like the Stonewall Book Award and the Brooklyn Public Library Book Prize, and being praised by literary figures such as Glennon Doyle and Roxane Gay. The book challenges the notion that queerness and Islam are mutually exclusive, resonating deeply with readers who see themselves reflected in Lamya’s narrative.
In an interview with them, Lamya shared how writing about Quranic prophets helped them empathise with their younger self. They also discussed how their choice of hijab style changes based on context, influencing how they are perceived, especially in family dynamics. Despite their anonymity, Lamya values reader feedback, having received heartfelt messages and participated in virtual events to connect with their audience.
One notable chapter in "Hijab Butch Blues" draws a parallel between Lamya’s personal experience during Eid al-Adha and the story of Hajar from the Quran, highlighting themes of sacrifice and untold stories. Lamya’s exploration of faith involves embracing doubt, which they believe strengthens their spiritual journey.
Lamya's work emphasises that being queer doesn’t negate religious identity. They acknowledge the difficulties faced by queer individuals, especially those outside the white, homonormative experience, yet they also celebrate the joy and complexity within these narratives. Through their memoir, Lamya aims to create a nuanced portrayal of queerness and Islam, challenging conventional narratives and fostering empathy and understanding.
Lamya’s next project is a fictional work exploring themes of constrained movement and friendship, while they also focus on raising their child with an understanding that faith and doubt coexist. Lamya’s story continues to inspire and resonate, proving that identity and spirituality can intertwine in meaningful ways.
“Hijab Butch Blues” can be purchased here.
All images by Ramie Ahmed
